(This is the kind of picture you get when I can't find an appropriate quote online!)
Earlier this year, I started writing a new urban fantasy novel. It was a big idea, heavy and thick. But it was slow going. I felt like my mojo was stuck in the mud. I told myself it was because the story was challenging me and that's a good thing.
When summer break started, I had far less time to write. It was harder to find the writing groove. But I still believed I could finish the novel by the end of September. I was motivated. I knew where I was going with it.
Again, the words came slow. I wondered what was wrong with me. Because the story certainly was not at fault.
I decided to put it aside for a week or two. A little break was what I needed. That break grew into three weeks and then six.
Why wasn't I racing to write it? The idea is brilliant. Maybe I wasn't telling the story right. Perhaps I should start all over again. Am I not a good enough writer for this idea? Did I just crash and burn? Will I ever get my mojo back? Panic, fear, sorrow, freaking out, not enough chocolate in the world.
I started to write a new series of novelettes and they're flowing beautifully. So I guess I didn't lose my mojo.
But what about the novel? The idea is still like a shining star to me. I will go back to it. For now, I just need to be okay with putting it aside.
Maybe I will have to start over again and tell the tale differently. Not everything is going to come to me easily. It's part of the learning process. I need to be okay with that too.
And I need to be okay with being okay about it. It doesn't make me a failure. I haven't lost anything.
What are you working on being okay with?